Pheonix says, 'I get a high from saying frightening and truthful things'

PHEONIX FERRELL.

OUTSPOKEN.

EMPOWERED.

MADE FROM STARDUST.

Pheonix is a wounded woman healed, a powerful new mother, and a rebel for the people.  She speaks loudly about things that matter. She speaks out for women, for nursing mothers, for new parents and for a better America.

WE CHAT WITH PHEONIX ABOUT FINDING STRENGTH IN YOUR OWN VOICE, FOOD PROPAGANDA, WEED, THE BS SOCIAL PRESSURE TO 'BOUNCE BACK' AND HOW CREATING A FAMILY SHOULD BE MORE ABUNDANCE AND LESS RESTRICTION. 

May feeding our children in America not be remembered as a cultural movement but rather, a human right.
— @pheonix.wild

Did you have a perspective on breastfeeding before you became a mother, and what does it mean to you now?

I WAS SO OBLIVIOUS BEFORE. I'D NEVER SEEN A WOMAN BREASTFEED UNTIL I STARTED. I'M 25.

Before I became a mother, I honestly never really thought about breastfeeding beyond the stigmas I'd heard from other young maidens who were not mother's either. So, it was pretty negative. "Your boobs will be saggy." "It's painful." "You won't have freedom."

Unfortunately, I just kind of bandwagoned with that frame of mind.  I wasn't against it. I just didn't have an opinion. And then I didn't really feel provoked to think more into it until I found out that I was pregnant.

Then all of a sudden the experience was all about my son, and zero percent about what I was afraid of.

Now that he is here, it's kind of like an insecurity that I didn't know was there for mother's everywhere. I go about my life, and when I'm amongst people I don't know or in public and I need to breastfeed I get shy sometimes. Or feel ashamed. Once I get settled into it though, I feel liberated because I realize that mothers have been doing this since the beginning of time. They've just had to hide in our recent way of life.

Birth is “a gradual escalation of an experience your body has been training to do for 9 months. PREGNANT MAMAS. you are ready. you are strong. your are wise. you will make the perfect size baby for you and you and your baby are a team. i believe in you human.”
— @pheonix.wild

Describe your birthing experience, and your first few weeks of new motherhood.

My birthing experience was a whirlwind of the unexpected.

I spent night and day dreaming of a magical quick birth. Then found myself 26 hours into labour, thinking that my son must think I'm a fool for trying to plan his entrance so gracefully.

We planned a homebirth, but ended up going to the hospital. We anticipated our midwives lack of support, and she was pretty close to evil for our whole experience.

I thought I would birth standing up or squatting but he came out as I was on my back. It was crazy.

The first few weeks of his life were sort of a beautiful dream.

I cried when I took showers because I missed him being in my belly, and I couldn't leave him for more than 30 seconds without feeling like the world was going to come to an end.

I definitely dealt with the baby blues. But I describe it to people so that they understand that it wasn't depression.

It was a soul opening experience. I didn't know I had the ability to love another human that much. It broke me.

I've never been the same, I wouldn't go back to being without a child for anything in this universe.

You’ve been really open about having some deep hurt in your past, “sexual abuse, self hate, bullying, religious oppression, eating disorders, drug abuse and lack of love from a real man” and about your Instagram art beginning after “two failed attempts at suicide and a few weeks stay in mental health facilities”. 

Tell us about your headspace now, and how you’ve found such a strong and positive voice?

I think that for a while, I was pretty annoyed with Instagram. I still find myself separating from social media for weeks or days just to detox. I think it's a bit scary for me to have THAT many people supporting me and validating my voice.

But, without Instagram I would still be a lonely girl dealing with a lot of emotional issues. So, my headspace now is of that initiative. I get a high from inspiring women and men from all walks of life.

I get a high from saying frightening and truthful things in a way that makes people laugh, argue or agree. I have met so many people from all over the world who love me for who I am and what I do.

I feel like a follower of myself most days. My positive voice is for my own strength first and foremost.

Transitioning away from being a bully to myself had a lot to do with Instagram. I am so thankful.

You read heaps about health, eat vegan and smoke week. Talk to us about your take on food, pot and breastfeeding.

I have always been a rebel. I have a problem with authority and I require an explanation for everything.

WITH THAT SAID, ANY PROTOCOL GIVEN TO MOTHERS BASED OFF OF FEAR TACTICS, BULLYING AND LACK OF INFORMATION DOES NOT SIT WELL WITH ME.

The propaganda put out about the food that we eat is really evil. And it's scary because people who have been lied to for so long, refuse to open their eyes when truth is placed in front of them.

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things like tylenon, sodas, high fructose corn syrup, MSG, dairy…and all the other bullshit that is considered part of the “american diet” and is heavily promoted and “approved” by our medical system is the fucking enemy. not marjuana.
— @pheonix.wild

The processed garbage that is consumed is not only harming our own bodies, but the planet as well. Watch, "Before the Flood" on YouTube for an interesting take on the environment and our diets. There is the same propaganda surrounding marijuana as well.

Like, come on guys. Marijuana is a healing herb. Used by the indigenous and our ancestors for meditation and health purposes. We just use it more for entertainment purposes now, so it seems like we should shake our finger at it.

No one has died from using pot. Alcohol, and contaminated food kill people every day.

It's just another distraction man. Put into your body what you would want your child to consume and be exposed to.

When I was pregnant, smoking a hit of organic kush was the ONLY way I could eat, sleep and combat the constant nausea and anxiety of being a few months pregnant.

I get emails from literally so many woman asking me if it's safe, and if they can use it to help them eat. Literally.

Tylenol is just toxic. And when doctors prescribe that shit to pregnant mamas it really makes me question the direction our humanity is being dragged towards.

And breastfeeding is definitely the right path, but it's useless when you are fueling yourself with garbage and lies. Fill yourself with the love and the abundance of earth, and your child will thrive with you.

something needs to be said about the support a new family needs immediately following the birth of a child. especially the firstborn. in ancient times, tribes would go as long as a year to feed, care and nurture the new trio. meaning, mom, baby and father were guided gently towards the lifelong journey of parenthood.

now. for some reason. this society believes it is customary to rush and look down on the postpardum (sic) period. women are encourage to get back in the game. “buy this stroller with one wheel so you can sprint in the park to show everyone you’ve back in shape.” “dad you must work 18 hours a day to buy random baby toys.” “don’t breastfeed too long because it’s not convenient and it’s weird.
— @pheonix.wild

Word. We couldn’t agree more. This crazy social pressure needs to change - for the sake of mothers, fathers and children.

How do you think we create a more supportive society for new families, and do you think the social media ‘village’ is making things easier or harder? 

Support, understanding and love. That is what new parents need. 

I think that there is a big transformation that needs to happen - people who haven't had a child need to understand.

I sometimes feel like my old friends are afraid to talk to me, for fear that I'm going to ask them to babysit or talk to about poopy diapers or some shit. Like. I'm not. But if I do, you should be there. Offering to assist before I need to beg.

I shouldn't have to fear that if my baby is coming along that you will be annoyed.

if I'm a little slow getting back my independence I shouldn't feel like people are eyeballing my every move to see if being a mother has changed me.

"Did she bounce back?"

Like shut up with that BS. Mother's are much stronger women after birth, and I think it is intimidating. But it should be encouraging.

Reproducing and creating families is part of being human. But, there are a lot of these basic principles we just don't understand because we weren't taught - new families are just expected to figure it out. And that's not fair. Nor is it very nice.

My friend and I are working on creating a new support community that nurtures new parents, and will allow friends and family to get actively involved. Support is the key.

I think social media can help to connect and mend that feeling of isolation to a certain extent, but as we all know social media can only go so far.

We have to create real life experiences that will make creating families more about abundance and less about restriction. 

Finally, what was the best advice your mother ever gave you?

Don't treat people out in the streets better than you do your own family. It will only make you lonelier.


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